Posess the strength to heal,
posess the strength to think,
to lead, to grow.

i am humble when i feel misguided,
as if a confused glance,
and plea for re-direction,
could calm this ego,
settle, mellow, tame,
the girl rage,
let me
feel safe,
in this gender cage - unlearn
what is painful in unlearning.

To speak. To be. To break.
This China doll estate.
To hurt to heal.
To re-create.

But what if I make a mistake?
This doubt,
this fear,
this silence
requires unlearning.

you tell me to be,
stand strong,
and rooted.
to be mean,
to be me.
to say no.

self-sacrifice is for those who have the self to give,
to give what I haven't given myself,
is to starve,

my heart grows thin.
i want to thrive again.

i know. i can. i'm scared.

this resignation,
to loss,
requires unlearning.

I want to win,
to live again,
to shout, to scream, to rage,

this
int-er-nalization,
of fear and silence,
these scriptures of thou shall and shall not do or say,
requires
unlearning.